Aria’s Updates

Short updates and thoughts.

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Just really embarrassed myself talking with my ego. Painful. Confusing. I have to remember that I shouldn’t say things that only serve my own interest. Asking myself: How does this assist the synthesis of the world-slime?

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Everything is trained behavior. Everything. Pavlovian conditioning all the way down. Be mindful of the ways you are being conditioned and conditioning others.

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Recently, I’ve been struggling with suicidality again. Today, unexpectedly, I read the first chapter of Charlotte’s Web. It really resonated with me. I saw my situation in the whole exchange. Me, the runt piglet; Me, the farmer who wants to kill it; and, everyone who loves me, the bleeding-heart child begging to spare the it. In the end, you have to let yourself be saved.

I think I can turn this around.